My self-esteem is zero. My intelligence is non-existent. the vagaries of life are tugging at my mind, forcibly making it explode almost as if it started within. I hate how I write. I hate how I am. I am decadant. Stagnant.
Why am i not dead ?
Why is it so hard to learn, improve, do something that I feel is going to be somehow worthwhile? Should I trust that feeling or discard my desires, wants into the pit of pointlessness. If I do that I would be in effect discarding myself. Why isn’t that okay?
It is OKay.